祝君好

聽　你不斷呼叫我
劃破　寧靜　我的心下墜
在難過　講　不出愛沒結果
口和唇　緊緊閉鎖

哭　也一話都不說
害怕　連累　你一生日月
憾無缺　只差跟你曾遇過
給過你　太多波折

＊寧願沒擁抱　共你可到老(能夠終老)
任由你　來去自如
在我心底仍愛慕
如若碰到　他比我好
只望停在遠處　祝君安好
雖不可(多麼想)　親口細訴

說　太多話我想說
但我　還是　要啞口道別
任由我　天空海闊流著血
只要你　白似冰雪

选择

去了海边过后想一想，
也对。
其实并不是很大件事，并没有什么大不了。

那只是年少无知。。是这样说吧？
但我不能说我无知，因为我是知道的。
只能说天真，认为一切都可以回到原点。

我忘了这不是游戏，死了过后不能从新开始。

也能说我自大，认为我能够回到最初的那个我。。

原本的那个我。


现在才发现，不能。
要怎么做？
我是知道的。

可是做不做得到。。。。。
是另外一回事。


可能我了解那份用心。
但了解是一回事，
感觉又是另外一回事。

　悲伤已经慢慢的淡了。
但是忘记是不可能的。
放下的方法，还在找。。。。

并没有什么大不了。。。
但是，
两年来很大不了的东西突然之间变没什么大不了。

我还负荷不来。
真的没什么的。。。

时间是解药还是毒药。。。。
都是我的选择。

yosh yosh~

i am in a mess...
n i cant get myself out.

so i need help...
but no one can help me with this.
because i can't tell no one and don't know how to tell.

there is a very heavy feeling inside but i don't know how to get rid of it.
wanted to cry...
but i can't.
is it because all these times i keep telling myself that crying is weak?
or because i kept telling myself, there is no reason for me to cry.
because i should be happy.

now i am in a confused state of what i must do, what i should do with what i want to do.

the problem is....
i don't even know what i want to do.

its complicated.
i know.
and i am lost

Attitudes Toward Self Test - Report

My Attitudes Toward Self

High Standards	42
Self-Criticism	92
Generalization	81

You have high self-criticism. You have high generalization.

Take a personality tests now or view the full Attitudes Toward Self Report. UGG Boots UK

Stress Management Test - Report

My Stress Management

Functional Management	68
Emotional Management	44
Disengagement	57
Internalization	84

You have medium restraint, however you have high suppression of competing activities. You have low use of emotional social support. You have low mental disengagement. You have high religious coping.

Take a personality tests now or view the full Stress Management Report. UGG Boots UK

Motivational Behavior Test - Report

My Motivational Behavior

Behavioral Approach	64
Behavioral Inhibition	67

You do not have a very strong drive for completely tasks that you have set yourself, or even that others have set for you, however you are very motivated by seeking reward for your behaviour. The offer of a reward (such as a promotion for working hard or winning a bet) will keep you motivated to complete difficult activities.

Take a personality tests now or view the full Motivational Behavior Report. UGG Boots UK

Personality Test - Report

My Personality

Neuroticism	77
Extraversion	3
Openness to Experience	10
Agreeableness	11
Conscientiousness	4

You often resist any cravings or urges that you have, but sometimes you give in, however you tend to lack energy and have difficult initiating activities. You are not prone to spells of energetic high spirits. You prefer facts over fantasy and are more interested in what is happening in the real word. You feel superior to those around you and sometimes tend to be seen as arrogant by other people, however you believe that a certain amount of deception in social relationships is necessary. You are guarded in new relationships and less willing to openly reveal the whole truth about yourself. You are not an overly cautious person. You will think about alternatives and consequences but make up your mind fairly quickly.

Take a personality tests now or view the full Personality Report. UGG Boots UK

another emo post~

found something on facebook...
click here click there n poof there u go...

well, i hate myself again.
haha, for having the feeling i am having.
Seriously..
why did i care?
none of my business.
For one year i have been hypnotising myself with this phrase.

10 friends.Perfect 10?
All of them friends before 2005.
Except one of course.

Good job, seriously.

I am the only one thats useless..hah

A-lice

hate myself.....no one can help me except myself.

knew this all along.....

but i am not helping myself...
just hating....continuous hating.

no confidence, no dignity , no pride .
Lost it all 1 and 3 quarter years ago..

thats me

no title

results out...
just as i thought it wont be good.
but it went worse than i thought.

i deserve it, didn't really work hard for A levels.
One and a half year, i wasted it.

If i have matured a little, then at least i get something.
What did i get?

1st semester, was into my own world almost the whole time.
2nd semester, playing around.
3rd semester, what did i do?

past is past, can't do anything anymore.
what i have is future.
i've said this before now it comes back to me.

Curtin? impossible.
engineer? impossible.

where should i go then?
September intake? a bit too far away.
I have little time if i want to get out of here in feb..
very little time

i can't

i know its a good opportunity.
but knowing the percentage of succeed is near to zero,

how can i take it?
what if it make me feel worse?
what if it remind me of the old damn never recovered scars?

i can't.
can't take in another scar from the same person...
i have no guts to take the chance.

another one!!^ ^

this time i just pump air into tyre...
3 at the one 1st time!
actually i wanted to do 4...
but there was a little prob..
nevermind...will pump that one another day~

!st time

everything has a 1st time~

today i had a first time....

~~

i.... changed the 1st tyre in my life!!!

wahaha~~ proudo

dream~

read sin yee's blog

there is 2 about dream.

yesterday i too had a dream, but i don't think its the same kind of dream as sin yee's.

I think there is a reason for that dream .

Because of sms..

i dreamt that i was in a secondary school. ( i think bcos of the uniform)

But not in my ori secondary school, it looked more like my primary school.

Weird dream.

everything was the same, the happiness was the same.

But there is one extra person, a person who didn't appear in secondary.

In the dream i felt.....relieved.

But after i woke up, real life told me that its only a dream.

And it will always be a dream.

I've had this kind of dream a few times now.

And everytime i wake up i asked myself the same question.

Why .... did i have this kind of dream?

updating...

Although only got one follower....
The keohism guru....
still need to update ma.
right?
so me now in hometown,1st 2 weeks watch hong kong drama series.
then grow mushroom since no com to use during tat time....

but..

WOLAH~~~QIANG QIANG QIANG QIANG~~~~

got a new cpu!
although my fren say its expensive la...
but , nevermind !

AT least not bored le ma...
ngiahaha~