30th nov

One day prior to the release of result

Suppose to go for a paintball game..but too bad the place went down for maintenance!!

aish...

Was planning to get some bruises...so sad. at least i can press it tomoro if i did fail something. LOL

So no paintball, we went bowling...lame huh. washed the drain for 8 times hahaha

i want paintball~~~

Then lm accompany me for camera searching~ was in dilemma whether to choose 1000 or 300.

Canon IXUS series with the difference of RM100

1000 have 10X optical zoom while 300 only till 3.8

1000 is bigger and more expensive while 300 is smaller and lighter

features is more or less the same with 1000 has HD video recording feature and 300 non

but but but!!! 300 is pretty!! ^^

hahaha, so guess which one i bought?

nevertheless,

scary wednesday

scary 1st of dec

scary future

scary responsibility

scary life

29 nov

Just informed my dad about the deposit that he has to pay to UQ so that i can get the CoE and apply visa..

gave him the details and got ok as a reply.

lol

Going to aus is a burden to me. Since I didn't really carry out my responsibility as a student well.

And going there is going to burn a big hole in my dad's pocket... aih

Result is coming out soon. Not expecting any good results.. just a pass for everything is good enough for me. But i doubt i can even get that...

I know what i should do..but i prefer to be like this to avoid stress and expectations... useless

How can I get those wanting a good result attitude of people around me?

Since i really don't have any. Or maybe i have but being plain stupid, getting good result is just impossible. XD

Then i am very lucky to have an opportunity to go out of Malaysia for the purpose of studying, right?

Lucky bastard.

28/11/2010

很庆幸能认识你

但同时也很惭愧

庆幸你重视我

惭愧我带给你的困扰

认识我的人有点可怜

要有很强的包容力

谢谢包容我的人

抱歉麻烦你们了

哈哈哈

nov 27 2010

went to badminton at 12 something and played for around 2 hours.

It felt nice after exercising and sweating after so long~

but i think i'll have muscle pain tomorrow. hahaha

Mark sprained his ankle while playing with me, lol.

playing with slippers, ceh, what do you expect? but it seems painful.

Then we went to eat and when we are done, it started raining.

Kah Leong and Adeline them were talking about some weird stuff while waiting for the rain to stop that i don't really get, but lm says thats good so its ok.

Then turns out the rain never wanted to stop so we decided to just go and run towards the car~

Poor Mark can't run and had Sim drive him to his car. hahaha

home, bathed, tired, napped.

Went meeting, read blog and will sleep later. XD

^^

sorry

i've been thinking something lately

something that I am not sure of what I should do

but i am thinking of telling my past...

although it shouldn't be told..

But I'll tell, when i am ready to let you go.

^^

Sometimes things are just not like what you think it is~

What you look at or know now may not be the same as it is in the past or future.

A person may be totally different from what you know now in the past or future.

If this does happen, I am sorry if there is disappointment or speechless feeling.

But if it is in the past, there is nothing that can be changed except for learning from mistakes and to never do it again if it was bad or to cherish it if it is memorable.

As for future, no one can know what will happen except to appreciate what is with us now but that seems like a thought that is always neglected as time goes by.

aus

going to aus soon... 13 weeks from now i will be Brisbane... far from home and everyone

hmm~ nice way to start anew? hahaha

won't it be nice if I was born rich? lame

nothing much to be worried about, just will hear some nagging and a little pressure along the way...

anyway, will still be living and kicking right?

hmmmmm

22/11/2010

wee, done business.

done everything now free~~~

free for 10 days~

then will be in training.

out of training then will go travel then one more month

will be in aus...

before in aus will worry about result for a while then see if i have to take summer courses..

hahaha, easy and simple. not much to worry...i think?

^^

.

我已经低声下气了

还想我怎样嘛

到底要我怎样

如果说算了， 是不是就算了

哎！！

uniqlo

went to kl today
its been long since i last went there..
ktm then walk then monorail...
how long have it been? half a year at least?

bought heat tech stuff for korea
and 2 fleece
my pocket has a super big hole now~
but at least i got free lunch thanks to YES (new launching of something)
XD

just got back my almost dead comp... luckily its still alive~
but then need to re-download some stuff... msn for example..

and with the super "fast" speed of my line~ i should be able to on it by 9?
hahaha.
another day without anything of management in my head... la~~~

piggy song

小猪小猪瘦排骨
一天到晚只会哭
哭完它又不会睡
所以整天呜呜呜


XD

done

3rd paper...

left business....essays~~ gosh

but someone left 3 papers.. wahaha

jia you, aza!, fighting!

Don't stress too much!

Enjoy the Lord in the process,

O LORD JESUS!!!

13th nov

b4 today ends.

Happy birthday to dearest 'and beyond'.

^^

caring is never easy~

caring is never easy~

you will hope the person you care to be healthy and everything be good for that person,

but at the same time you know that you can't control anything so that it suits what you want.

Therefore, when prevention failed, the other options are treatment or walk away.

but if you really do care, walking away won't be easy, would it?

Which leaves treatment as the sole choice. Where you stay and hope that your presence can be any good for that person.

But with the natural self, this kind of thought is limited.

Only the elements of God is ever lasting..So i'll learn to love God more so that my care won't be limited.

^^

another born on 11 nov

Dear duck,

of course i remember your bday.

Happy 20th and be happy.

Maybe something that can satisfy you and make you happy is already there,

but of course need you to accept and be open~

(hope you know what i mean)

Anyway, live well.~

11 nov

Happy birthday old chingu kampung kia,

21st dy, can vote dy.

wahaha, and legally enter casino.

although you looked legal long time ago.

form 3 look like form 6 then you should looked legal since we are 19?

XD

anyway, know you had a great time in aussie, have fun.

Don't be emo kid. Find a plumber to fix the pipe when you're free~

Live well and love the Lord more. XD

glad

quite glad that ship is more important than past..

although this is because of a post that shouldn't be seen..

i'm glad.

very glad and thankful.

thanks piggy

hmm

its been long since I had this kind of feeling

tired from within...

experienced a lot last time....

stopped for quite some time too...

hmm...

so tired has few types too, physically, mentally, within...

aih...

I chincha chongmal shiro this kind of feeling...

God help me..

1st day of dying

pharm....

not sure what i am writing all the way..

simply crap for all questions.

hope i'll really get lucky and get a pass then ^^

aih~

i'm coming physio.. coming....

7th

happy sweet 16th

what??

dunno what to write so just post some stuff from wednesday and thursday

pic 1: dinner on thursday...none out of my hand.. hahaha

pic 2: strong coffee after business quiz~ scary.. but pretty cup. hahaha

pic 3: pleasant surprise - double yolk in the morning

dear bloggie

Dear bloggie,

today is 5th of Nov and I have nothing to write

exam is coming and I cannot sleep late...(pity)

7th is coming...

oh no...me sleepy now

interesting thought

sometimes you have to allow yourself to be weak, in order to get stronger

Interesting...

I am weak, but I like to hide it. So am i getting stronger? hahaha

^^

feelings

Feelings are weird and unreliable

dislike may arise with no apparent reason

depressing feeling may occur without any reason (not to mention when there is a reason)

and tend to get stuck in those feelings for quite a period of time

99% of the feelings are unreliable

therefore, I dun like to get stuck in it... although it happens quite frequently.

O Lord help me...

http://www.eclecticenergies.com/enneagram/test.php

Did this for business management, 1st time its type 6 but 2nd i am type 5..haha

This is type 5

Thinkers who tend to withdraw and observe

People of this personality type essentially fear that they don't have enough inner strength to face life, so they tend to withdraw, to retreat into the safety and security of the mind where they can mentally prepare for their emergence into the world. Fives feel comfortable and at home in the realm of thought. They are generally intelligent, well read and thoughtful and they frequently become experts in the areas that capture their interest. While they are sometimes scientifically oriented, especially with the Six wing, just as many Fives are drawn to the humanities and it is not at all uncommon for Fives to have artistic inclinations. Fives are often a bit eccentric; they feel little need to alter their beliefs to accommodate majority opinion, and they refuse to compromise their freedom to think just as they please. The problem for Fives is that while they are comfortable in the realm of thought, they are frequently a good deal less comfortable when it comes to dealing with their emotions, the demands of a relationship, or the need to find a place for themselves in the world. Fives tend to be shy, nonintrusive, independent and reluctant to ask for the help that others might well be happy to extend to them.

Fives are sensitive; they don't feel adequately defended against the world. To compensate for their sensitivity, Fives sometimes adopt an attitude of careless indifference or intellectual arrogance, which has the unfortunate consequence of creating distance between themselves and others. Trying to bridge the distance can be difficult for Fives, as they are seldom comfortable with their social skills, but when they do manage it, they are often devoted friends and life long companions.

Fives are usually somewhat restrained when it comes to emotional expression, but they often have stronger feelings than they let on. Few people know what is going on beneath the surface, as Fives have an often exaggerrated need for privacy and a deep seated fear of intrusion. Because of their sensitivity and their fears of inadequacy, Fives fear being overwhelmed, either by the demands of others or by the strength of their own emotions. They sometimes deal with this by developing a minimalistic lifestyle in which they make few demands on others in exchange for few demands being made on them. Other Fives make their peace with the messiness of life and engage it more fully, but they almost always retain their fears that life is somehow going to demand more of them than they can deliver.

Fives, especially with the Four wing, sometimes mistype themselves as Fours. Such Fives recognize that they have strong emotions and don't identify with the often extremely cerebral portrait of type Five. But, Fives, unlike Fours, always retain some degree of discomfort when it comes to the expression of their emotional states. However much facility they may gain with it, the language of emotion is not their native tongue.

Interested to try?

test

Once upon a time

Once upon a time, I too tried hard to maintain my friendships and friends meant a lot at that time

but since when i started to let it be what it will be?
hmm... i don't know ><

once upon a time, I think about what i will be or what i want to be

but that too lost as time goes by...

Maybe it has something to do with growing up? or something to do with environment?

wahaha, I dunno ...