titanics..hmm?

Its never easy to maintain relationships...

No matter what type of ship it is..

But so far I didnt really had big problems in it although there had been mistakes.

No matter what, i am lucky i got few ppl that i know for a very long time..

especially one or maybe two ( but one always reminding bout the anniversaries) with 12 years and still counting~^^

Maybe if i try hard enough, i'll have a new ship that will last for a long long time.

Not sure whether it will work, but at least i'll try to maintain it.

^^

It didnt sink!! yay!!!

ahahaha....

thought it sank for real at that moment...

Luckily it still can be fixed.

so its floating at the moment..

But really, when one side give up, then its no use to try to fix it..

It'll most probably wont work.

So, if you can, don't give up... just wait a little while and maybe it'll float back..

Stuffs to learn

I've got things that i have to learn.

Curiosity kills a cat, if i am a cat.. then i think i've died 8 times. lol

Left one life then...

I'll learn how to give space, just like the space that i have.

Same safe distance.

equal.

I'll learn to be enthusiastic in something.

not laid back as I am at the moment.

I'll learn..

Rie Fu - Life is like a boat

Nobody knows who I really am
I never felt this empty before
And if I ever need someone to come along
Who’s gonna comfort me, and keep me strong

We are all rowing the boat of fate
The waves keep on comin’ and we can’t escape
But if we ever get lost on your way
The waves would guide you thru another day

I’m breathing in the distance, as if I’ve turned transparent
I thought it had gotten dark, but I was merely blindfolded

I offer a prayer and wait for a new day
To the ends of the ocean that shines vividly

Nobody knows who I really am
Maybe they just don’t give a damn
But if I ever need someone to come along
I know you would follow me, and keep me strong

People’s hearts change, so I want to slip out
The moon in its new cycle brings along the boat again

And every time I see your face,
the oceans heave up to my heart
You make me wanna strain at the oars,
and soon I can see the shore

I want you to know who I really am
I never thought I’d feel this way towards you
And if you ever need someone to come along
I will follow you, and keep you strong

The journey is still continuing on, on the calm days, too
The moon in its new cycle begins to shine on the boat again

I offer a prayer and wait for a new day
To the ends of the ocean that shines vividly

And every time I see your face,
the oceans heave up to my heart
You make me wanna strain at the oars,
and soon I can see the shore

Rowing the boat of fate, the waves assault us one after the next
But that’s also a wonderful journey; they’re all wonderful journeys

not on the track

It can't be on the supposed 'right' track.

Cannot be....

If not it will be a very troublesome matter..

Should be nothing

Just a good mood act.

yep....good mood act...

Final coming, end of year 2 coming

Good luck, work hard

In one month time, we'll all ...er.... i mean most of us, will be free.

^^

aih~, final...T.T

reason

Don't think its a bad thing to step back a little and increase the distance although it may hurt a little in the beginning...

if it ends, maybe it's not that bad...

so didn't try to maintain when something is wrong..

sorry..

??

lalalala, dunno what to write.

Don't ask too much next time.

aih

I have few questions to ask:

1. If he treasures the friendship between you two, will he give it up so easily? or is the friendship

only a step to get something more than that? Maybe i shouldn't say this, maybe in the beginning both of you were just pure friends with the purest of heart. But then again, will someone that treasures friendship throw it away just because there is no chance to be more than just a close bestfriend?

2. When you two agreed that everything will be okay and you will still remain as close friends. If he didn't honour that promise and fulfill it, is it really worth that much for you to cry for and to care so much for him?

3. If in a few months time, there can be a new her, is he really the one for you? fine you can blame yourself by saying you are the one who hurt him 1st by not accepting and rejecting, then again, who agreed to remain as best friends afterwards? Who then regarded that promise as rubbish? Who then after that have nothing to talk or say to you anymore? Is he really worth crying for? till your eyes look like a panda being punched because its swollen and may have caused you (I don't know how many) sleepless nights???

4. Being a guy, letting a girl he once loved maybe or liked to try so much saving the friendship, how much more 'gentleman' can he be? again, worth it? maybe, maybe he is too important, too

reliable when you were in those situations. But he chose not to be involved, not even a normal

friend that will care now regardless of what he promised. I know no one is perfect, but then if you really cant do what you promised, you shouldn't. Don't even try to act as if you can.

5. The last one, is he really that important and irreplaceable to let you worry your friends and maybe family?

Maybe i am imposing too much of my opinions here, sorry bout that. Maybe i shouldn't say so much since i don't know anything. Sorry. But even if you did accept in the 1st place. I doubt he really can give you the happiness that you deserve.

If i sounded angry, I was.