about leaving

There are things that make me want to leave as soon as possible, but at the same time

there is a person that make me feel like staying longer...

if I can, I would leave everything behind...

if I can, I may not come back at all.

if I can, I want to be without family.

Sounds selfish.. but this is what I want at the moment.

I'll be free but poor. lol

2011/2/9

12 days left before I am leaving Miri.

Went to dentist for some checkup today. My teeth was fine so the doc just did scaling and polishing for me. She is much better than the one in SS15, at least it didn't hurt and bleed that much this time.

Before going in, I saw ppl that I don't want to see. I was surprised when i saw them, well only a glance actually...never look directly at the faces..

just treat them as invisible...

But my heart was beating faster and if I have had a car, I will go out and just go home. Fight or flight response....if I can, most probably is flight...

Of course because I can't...then... just pretend they are invisible.

Sigh

blog

I've lost the feeling to blog, lol...

not sure how to blog and what to write anymore..

might pick the feeling back if i write more?

But can't think of anything to write.

Today went for bible reading and its fun.

The fun part is because i get to bully a baby, kids are nice to play with when they are still small.

Cute little Yang Yi.. lol

and she is super light...

Will miss Miri i suppose...

will miss my room and the environment. Will miss studying in Taylor's? maybe

Will miss the ppl here.

Especially a pig. XD

^^

CNY of 2011

Will be away from Miri this cny...not because of studies but because of travelling.

This should be the 1st time.

Hmm, anyway, happy CNY guys. Enjoy your holidays and time with family and friends, it really is precious.

^^

finally

Finally back in Miri

But will be away again after 5 days...lol

Seoul trip was nice, except it was cold.

Will definitely enjoy it more if it isn't that cold.

Its still a nice experience no matter what.

You'll be in my heart - Phil Collins

Come stop your crying

It will be all right

Just take my hand Hold it tight

I will protect you

from all around you

I will be here

Don't you cry

For one so small,

you seem so strong

My arms will hold you,

keep you safe and warm

This bond between us

Can't be broken

I will be here

Don't you cry

'Cause you'll be in my heart

Yes, you'll be in my heart

From this day on

Now and forever more

You'll be in my heart

No matter what they say

You'll be here in my heart, always

Why can't they understand

the way we feel

They just don't trust

what they can't explain

I know we're different but,

deep inside us

We're not that different at all

And you'll be in my heart
Yes, you'll be in my heart
From this day on
Now and forever more

Don't listen to them
'Cause what do they know
We need each other,
to have, to hold
They'll see in time
I know

When destiny calls you
You must be strong
I may not be with you
But you've got to hold on
They'll see in time
I know
We'll show them together

Cause you'll be in my heart
Believe me, you'll be in my heart
I'll be there , From this day on,
Now and forever

Oh, you'll be in my heart, you'll be here in my heart
No matter what they say, I'll be with you
You'll be here in my heart, I'll be there always
Always

I'll be with you

I'll be there for you always, always and always

Just look over your shoulder

Just look over your shoulder

Just look over your shoulder

I'll be there, always

Sorry

Sorry if anything I said and do upsets you.

I am sorry, I shouldn't have been so heated up and talk so loud.

Sorry for my bad temper, sorry for my impatience.

Sorry if I made you feel stressed in this kind of time, when you are already under pressure.

I am very sorry for can't do anything to help you, didn't lower your pressure but then increased it.

I am sorry.